Days meld from one into the other. Work-sleep-work-sleep-work-sleep. No variety. Work isn't challenging or fun. I spend most days at work being bored beyond belief. I am the only one who doesn't have a regular task to complete every day. Everyone else has a job I have nothing. I wander aimlessly through the day desperately trying to find something to do that doesn't bore me to tears which is impossible. I dread getting up every morning to go there because I know I'll just stand around waiting for something to happen.

Of all the jobs I've had in my life this one is probably the saddest. I meet so many people each day that are so lost and alone in the world. I've had this lady come in every day this week bringing in pictures to be copied. The pictures are of her husband and her daughter both of whom have passed on. She is very alone. She has no other children or even grandchildren. She is clinging to these pieces of her family scattered throughout these photographs. Today she asked my opinion of which photograph I thought she should get enlarged since she said she had no one else to ask.

Lately there has been an endless parade of people getting pictures enlarged for memorial services. Many of them don't even have a decent picture of their loved one to enlarge but they need something so they find whatever they can. The subject is usually too small or too out of focus to make a clear enlargement from. A reminder to us all that we should take many photographs of the people we love while we still have them with us.

Last night I went with Ryan to a fashion photo shoot at my work. My boss was going to teach the photography club how to do fashion photography. Well a quick crash course anyway. It was so much fun! I used two rolls of film. I got some really interesting pictures. I have to admit I prefer looking for the humanity in them all. The clothes are secondary to me and facial expression or overall mood is more important to me. I would make a lousy fashion photographer with that attitude.

Today was so beautifully warm outside. It was the soul of spring beginning to set in upon the winter chill that has hung over us for so long. I could taste it today it was so beautifully sunny and bright. I ached to be outside but unfortunately I had to watch it all from behind windows.

This week-end is Karen's brother's shag and it should be fun. It has been a long time since I've been to a shag for someone I know. This will be an important year with two weddings happening.

Lately the bright point of my day has been Scott's blog entries. I read them while I have breakfast every morning and they make it easier to face another day of boredom. I really admire him for going all the way to Korea so far out of his element. Scotty is a very resiliant person ...unlike me.